well?
well here i go im sitting around today do some recording. it fun but its work for sure. only the part where i have to record otherwise im chilling. it has been an interesting time lately. god has been working not like he doesn’t all the time. i guess i just have been more open. i have been learning a lot just about things of late. not always the way i want to. but the way i should be from time to time. its like you want something and you dont get it. but you get something else that was not really even on your mind. its such a crazy thing how you do something you never thought you would. you have to take yourself out of the normalness of life to see and do new things. but i dont want to write anymore. so bye for now!
so here we go!
so here i go again. just going to type away, and make no sense. so here i have to say its been an interesting last few days in the life of me. good things, bad things, and things that dont make freaking sense. the bad, i got freaking pulled over on my way back from the show that my great band played up at central washington. it was so great the crappy feeling i got in my stoach when i saw the lights behind me. LAME. now i am going to pay $$$ to washington a state i dont even dwell in. 144 to be exact. but there is good things going on to. but wait another bad before the good. i have two broken overdrive pedals now! what my luck with that… wait none. so some good excited to see lydia! thats today since it the 2nd already. it shall be a good time. my friends are doing good too. i think at least. did a little shopping today and didnt even buy anything. but now we are to the part where i just start typing without a lot of thought. i dont think im the only person who feels like “what the heck is going on with me?” it like there are things you think should be going on in you life. but theyre not. there is no reson. but gods got some kinda plan. which i find to be crazy sometimes. im just waiting for things to come together like i know they will. just trying to be the best me. i get so confused at times with things. life can be a frustating thing at times. but we just have to learn to deal with it. but there are things that need to be figured out. just an answer to a question from someone that will help me be in a better place with things. thats all for now!
side notes and feelings
so i cant sleep. so i sit here in my underwear to write some words. the thing i have to say is that my mind is in a whirl wind. its going from here to there. but what can i say i am a man in his 20’s. I’m just trying to figure this life thing out. how come with girls you just want them to talk to you. you don’t have to have them say the world to you. a little bit of paying attention to you is all you really need. just so you feel a little wanted. what the heck is wrong with that. it seems every girl thinks i want them to say that they want to marry me. NO just freaking give me the time of day. on another note. past girls are the hardest things to deal with. one second they aren’t even the closest thing to being on your mind. the next you miss the freaking crap out of them things need to be done or restarted. I’m done. i can only do so much. getting messed with is the crappiest thing ever. I’m done. i am me and only me. i am only man!
just a little more
so i just got done wathing the movie almost famous. i enjoy that movie everytime i watch it. now that i have this i can writ what i want. the movie to me just made me think. all these people are enjoying life. but they are all missing the point of life. yes on one hand they are living to have fun in their life but the thing i think the most is the life they are living isnt as real as the real life. in life there are things that people make way bigger then what it really is. there are things as people that we miss out on every second. and those are the things that make life good. to offen we make things that are there seem like a crazy real thing. when in all realitythey are things we cant really get. we try our hardest to have them work. but really we just have to go with it. not make things that arent there, there. but at the same time we have to try to get things. everything good is worth working for. we might not get what we are trying to get. but what we get in return is better. the hard things that we go through make us who we are. no matter what anyone says only god knows whats going to happen. your life that you live is there for god to handle. it not there for your friends and family to handle. they can give you points on things, but in the end it your life and not theirs. do the things that make you happy. but make it something that can be real not something that looks good or sound good. but something that is good. a good thing is something that you may think that you dont deserve. you might get that thing that you dont get why you got it. and that is the thing that is amazing. real things are something that you can have not something that you would like to have. there is this whole thing about moving past the past. have old things become new. but dont let them be something that you know you cant have. pe happy. life isnt about sex drugs and rock n’ roll. even if those are things in your life. its about who do you want to be whats going to make you happy. not just something that is going to be something that gives you false hope or a good feeling. it like life is this crazy game that you have to play and if you make a wrong move, your not going to loose. you just have to make a different move. but to many wrong moves and you are done for. might not make sense but for some odd reason it does to me. there are the people you know and of those people there are the ones that hold a special place within your heart. those people are the greastest but can rip you in to a million pieces without even knowing what they did. you love people for sometimes the oddest resons. and those are the ones that you dont get the most offen. but love is the greatest thing. but it brings the heart to hurt the worse. i guess i should stop writing now. but love to love what you want to love if it is what brings you happiness. but love what is real.
the first day of this… the ramble
hey to all the people that might read this. so here i go just going to type out some things lhat have been running through my head. put up with my spelling. so it a pretty grand thing life in all. in the greatest and most confusing thing ever. it great how a day can go from being the most boring thing ever to a thing of you dont have enough time to do everything you want. crazy thing happened i went tanning for the first time today. i am done with being the pale white guy. ha ha i know funny. but besides that i just had a good time of talking with friends today. but the whole thing is is why do people get what they get makes no sense but deal. i think it is funny when thinking about your friend and yourself… you wonder why things get to be so good for some at the same time being confusing for them. then you can be me and have nothing going for you. im referring to women by this. you hear stories of old and the stories of new for them… being like wow i have nothing going and they have something going for them. the craziest thing is having married friends you just are so so happy for them. but when you are this guy you are like”where is my wifey” im crazy but you know thats all good. i like me. i just have to find someone that likes me. thats the whole battle. so i guess im bored of this going to go watch tv.
